i’m turning into my grama
not that it’s a bad thing, cuz i love her. i just find myself crying at the drop of a hat lately. i didn’t really cry at new moon, even the second time, but i cried at a fucking preview i saw. i cried watching This American Life S02E06 like a goddamn baby. then tonight i wept to private practice.
what’s even weirder? i liked it. i always feel better after a good cry. I’m not really crying at real things, they’re shows. Although they invoke real life feelings. I find myself somewhat unsure about my future and getting old and whatnot. so i cry. i get angry at dickheads in my life (well, they are barely in my life…i see them like 3 times a year) and cry at that. i cry at commercials. i cry at acceptance speeches. i cry cuz i miss my grandpa.
for me, it seems like all emotions just get pushed out into tears. i love that i’m not an angry person, but sometimes it probably would be more cathartic and easier on my eyes if i could just punch something instead.
